Cry Because Of My Own Pain

Today, I just remember about your face, your laugh, your smell, your kindness, everything in between, I gotta learn something because I know you will never come back.. And yeah, it is hurt me badly..  "Elise!" you said my name too many times.."Hey Mike! How are you?"Im fine.. you?""I'm... Sorta fine.. But a little bit dizzy-weezy because of Math exams yesterday..""Hmm. Did you do well?""Of course I am!! I'm smart!" Then again, I keeping my mouth shut, cuz I know he doesn't like me when I'm do that.. "Okay, no more words about yourself? Okay then, bye!""Bye......" I realize, I'm still in love with him.. And I know, I can't live without him... My mouth trembling, my heart still pounding, I don't know what to do without him.. And yes, I just found my self still missing him.. He has girlfriend.. her name is Sharron.. Well she's my bandmates, but she's the most beautiful girl that I know, she's the one for him..After that, I go to my class, and then listening to music to reduces the memory of him... "KKKRRRRIIINNNGGG" the second bell ring 2 times.. Everybody goes in, and I just pull out my earphones and put it in my bag.. I opened my diary, I realize I wrote all his name in my diary, I just, can't imagine how I fell in love with him.. And yes, this is my story, and my eyes starts to tear it self.. "Oh my God Lise?? Why are you cryiingg??" said Riza"It's okay.. I'm okay.." i said to her.. with smiling on my face..God, I'm still in love with him..